I consider myself a very religious and god fearing person . I devote lot of my hours praying and contemplating about self . I started calling pandit ji for regular prayers at my house and slowly I started showing reluctance to go and sit at the times pandit ji was praying . Those would many a times be odd hours and I would be too tired back from work . I thought it best to let pandit ji pray and go away . I paid him and there at that very moment my duty towards god finished . This went on for quite a few many years and i was a disillusioned and disheveled person till covid struck . That gave all of us time for introspection . Temples were closed and pandit ji out of service . What was left was self meditation and quiet prayers . We were to ourselves . God had suddenly moved from the confines of temples to our inner abode , from the clutches of pandits to our reach and approach .

I slowly started reveling myself to god’s existence . He was no longer in rituals and ceremonies . He was in quite meditation , in serving the poor . Even when i had covid i prayed lying down and he was beside me . He was in inner self of my human body and in quiet peace .

I understood that we can connect with him through our thought process and not by chanting of another person who is hired by us for his agency and services .

We have to realise god through our own hard work and slowly but steadily we become one with him .

Mamta Mehrotra 26/5/22